She's tired terribly tired
you woke me up but I was still dreaming
she dreamt till she forgot about everything.........

Please give me your lap
I want to lie on it
Don't avoid it
I really need your lap and shoulder to lie on.............

You used to tell bedtime stories,
she wanna listen to it once again.


Now, close my eyes
here's comes your warm

That's Unbelievable!

First day of my attachment how to explain pretty cool.
Met Lavin while walking towards to the employee entrance. I didn't noticed at first suddenly i realised a person stand close to me. I gave her a Shock looking expression.
Both of us look lethargic as we sound sleepy. >.<

Lavin told me that she slept at 1am last night. Ohmy gosh! She looks tired and sleepy neither me.

It's fun and interesting working with maju because she's the joker in communications department.


Oh Melvin, I'm your baby? so who are you to me? my babysister? LOL!
( my manager, who describes me so random.)



She's happy but her happy it's just within a second...........

You shared the priceless happiness with me,
but will it be forever?
within a second, i feel the warm in you gave to my heart however,
it just shattered like a bullet train.


You were the one who's shine on me
which was too bright that I can't find you.

All of sudden, there's so many random thoughts in my mind.
Am I always alone?
I wondered

You captured my minds
but I didn't awared about it
till this winter, it's too cold to answer it

I've just awaken a few seconds,
I knew the truth
But it's hard to break the truth in my heart.

I would like to have a shoulder
Unfortunately, you were not beside me

I believe there is miracle
I believe there is a hope which I wanted so much
I believe there is fate in life
I believe there is a god watching over us
I believe always look at the brighter side
I believe everyone has it's own talent
I believe after I die, people will grieve
But it's ok because I believe

HAPPY BIRTHDAY INADVANCE ESTHER! :)





My dearest daddy 'I love you';

I think of you each day.
I feel your arms around me,
that's how I get through my days.
Your looking down upon me,
to guide me on my way
,but its very hard without you,
each and every day.
People always tell me,the grieving will subside.
But how can it get better,without you by my side.
No matter how hard they try,to help me with this pain,
I am all consumed by thinking,It will never be the same.
I know one day we'll meet,in the Heavens up above.
It's the one thing that helps me,to never forget your love.
My dearest Daddy, I love you,Your with me every day.
I will keep this love within me,until that beautiful day...










Day after Days,
Night after Night,
The world moves as I stay still.
Staring at my plain dark bedroom wall.
Mother knocks on my door,
but I feel too numb to answerShe cries,
but I motionlessly don't answer.
I lie on my bed,Screaming in my head.
Pain forever with me never leaving.
It goes with me everywhere.
Like my shadow,Constantly there.
Now my sister turning into darkness.
She will before long be just like her brother.
And mother will soon give in.
The echo of glass breaking,
The sound of my mother screaming,
And me still emotionless as I lay.
The doors are slamming
.More glasses breaking.
And me just falling,
With no delay.Now the house grows dark.
Only the noise of the wind and the crickets grows.
And for me I have now been swallowed by the darkness.
And all my fears have come true.

I thought I was strong
You were so confident
However, nobody listen.
no one believes me.

It was just a thought afterall.
bear in mind, and work on it.
whatever has been done, it has been done

I've suffered the fears and unwanted things in my mind.
I've bearing it for years.
so you're asking me

I wondered.